Истории о любви — Мы слишком поздно понимаем,что любим тех кого теряем.Продолжение истории «Все началось в школе…»      

 Всем Привет! Хотелось бы мне продолжить «историю о любви» в разделе «дружба, переросшая в любовь» под названием «Все началось в школе…» . Прошло всего полтора месяца ,но многое уже изменилась. Да ,в той теме я просила совета,и мне его дали ,сказал что надо дать шанс ,а о поведении можно поговорить.. Я дала шанс  «Косте» и поговорила с ним ,он очень старался исправиться,и у него это получилось,он провел один день в школе,так как никогда не проводил. Сидел слушал о чем говорит учитель,решал быстрее всех примеры и задачи, и безусловно мне это понравилось,и все стало просто прекрасно. Но не все так просто… Он стал мне все больше писать,звал гулять,заходил за мной и просто стал мне надоедать. Подумать только,тогда прошла лишь неделя,а он меня уже достал .. В моих первых отношениях не хватало внимания,а теперь его через чур много, может я привыкла к тому что людям плевать на меня? А тут он не отходил от меня ни на шаг.. Да мне надоело.Всего неделя..и я стала думать что делать… просто я знаю что «Костя» по другому не может и я подумала что надо расстаться..понимаете,я привыкла к нему как к другу ,пусть немного мы с ним и ненавидели друг друга с начальной школы,но он был мне другом. Наши мамы знакомы ,и в детстве они приходили к нам,и мы к ним,и с «Костей» мы бесились  Да он мне нравился,но почему то я всегда думала что я ему безразлична,и поэтому он мне нравился ещё сильней,но после того  что он мне говорил ,как предложил мне встречаться и так печально спрашивал меня почему «нет» я только молчала.. Но потом не выдержала и сказала,что он нравился мне,потом этот Влад ,и о  к нему уже ничего не осталось.. А он лишь сказал «почему я раньше не решился» после этого мы с ним не разговаривали 2 дня..в школе ходила как 2 овоща поникнув головами . Не хочу говорить о том что произошло такого что заставило меня начать с ним встречаться ,но я решилась на это.. И после того как он меня накрыл вниманием,я перестала обращать на него свое внимание,и просто игнорировала его,что бы он сам меня оставил . Но не тут то было,он стал спрашивать что случилось ,и стал добивать меня ещё больше. Моя подруга тоже не выдержала такого натиска (он спрашивал у неё что со мной,и писал впрочем не мне ,а ей,потому что я его игнорировала) и сказала ему все то ,что не смогла сказать ему я . Даа…после этого мы не общались с ним вплоть до 4 апреля,а перестали мы с ним общаться 23 марта ,общение наше началось с того что он задал мне вопрос,а я так пофигически на него ответили «откуда мне знать,отстань!»  ,да он прикапался ко мне ещё больше,начал писать мне всякую ерунду,ох как же он мне надоел в тот день,но он отстал. Прошло ещё 3 дня и без «привет ,как дела?» он мне пишет «че делаешь»  я ему и ответила что это не его дело, ну вот ,мы с ним опять перессорились и в самом конце он заявил «я лишь хотел извиниться вчера но как видишь не получилось хDD» ,даа ,такого поворота я не ожидала,но мне было пофиг на то что он там хотел сделать , дни идут ,он ведет себя как и вел себя раньше, ржет на уроках,никого и ничего слушать не хочет ,и за год у него одна тетрадка по всем предметам,не знаю конечно что он собирается делать на экзаменах с таким то отношение к учебе ..но это не так уж и важно . Но вот время идет и мы друг друга даже не замечаем . Мы с ним как то ещё общались ,но почему то я ему все грубила,и последняя переписка была 16 апреля..так вот. Но тут со мной что то случилось и я поняла на сколько он дорог мне, это случилось тогда когда моя подруга читала  переписку с ним и говорила как он меня любил, она говорила  о том что «он ради тебя изменился ,дарил тебе цветы,а ты..» после этих слов я поняла как ошибалась,но закрыла на это глаза,ведь он так себя вел что мне казалось что все кончено.. Потом мой лучший друг написал что категорически против нашего общения, и вам не понять насколько я была удивлена такому повороту событий . Я его спросила что случилось то такого страшного ,что он  так поступает . Он молчал ,игнорировал меня ,и это не плохо у него получалось,потом не выдержал и начал писать матами ,мол отстань ,и кроме этого ничего не говорил,так и не объяснив причину своей обиды. Я ему звонила ,но он сбрасывал…так же я поступила и с «Костей» несколько недель назад.. так странно ,но я поняла что не стоило все так не объяснив бросить.. Я решила что надо извиниться,настрогала я ему там извинений на пару абзацев в котором я просила простить его и не держать на меня зла,я не на что не рассчитывала,просто за такой поступок стоило извиниться,ведь я так эгоистично поступила.. написала что влюблена в него и что поздно спохватилась..(писала я потому что,позвонить не осмелилась) он написал что я ему тоже нравлюсь…нравлюсь ,но ранее писал что любил! Значит все …потеряно ,не будет наверно больше такой искренних чувств,если что то опять будет. Поэтому  я боюсь ,а что будет если у него просто привязанность или симпатия,а я полюблю ещё сильней..расставаться будет сложно,думаю что в этом веке нет чувств чтоб сначала и до самого конца … 

 

Написала  я это что бы поделиться ,а не слушать критику со стороны незнакомых мне людей.. я лишь хочу знать,может кто то мне подскажет что делать…

90000 6 Things You Realize And Regret When You Let That Someone Special Go 90001 90002 There comes a point in just about everyone’s life when we accept we can not make it through this life alone — that we need a partner in order to make it out alive . 90003 90002 Different people come to accept this at different points in their lives, but regardless of who you are, how or where you were raised, or what your current living situation is, you will realize — sooner or later — you can ‘ t make it solo.90003 90002 Moreover, you’ll come to accept that you do not want to make it alone. 90003 90002 There’s a difference between knowing or being told you need someone in your life and feeling you need someone to share your life with. 90003 90002 We are told different «truths» throughout our lives and although we often believe what we are told, we rarely find the motivation to do what is recommended without first experiencing the need to act, to change. 90003 90002 One of the greatest motivators for settling down and partnering up is realizing you already let an ideal candidate get away.90003 90002 Just about everyone is searching for the next best thing, but only once you realize that finding better is mostly impossible will you truly appreciate what you once had and what you were once too immature to hold on to. 90003 90002 Only once you understand how good you once had it will you understand how bad you have it now, and only then will you be capable of turning your life around and turning it in the right direction. 90003 90002 In a sense, you need the one that got away in order to find the one that stays by your side forever.90003 90020 1. Realizing that loving and being in love are not the same thing. 90021 90002 When two people who are perfect for each other end up not working out, it’s usually because one of the two feels that he or she is no longer in love with the other. 90003 90002 Relationships can be incredibly intense in the beginning — even more so when you’re dating someone who could potentially be the one. As the novelty and excitement of it all die down, however, so do the corresponding emotional responses we experience.90003 90002 Not feeling your heart flutter when you see your partner does not mean you’re no longer in love. It just means you are no longer worried you may lose him or her. Sadly, this is a deceiving feeling as you can always lose anyone at any time. 90003 90020 2. Realizing that finding someone to love is a lot easier than finding someone to love you. 90021 90002 You can fall in and out of love weekly if your mind is open to it. Of course, it would be a very shallow sort of love and surely would not last, but nevertheless you would still feel many of those emotions most closely related to the phenomenon.The hard part is finding someone to love you in return. 90003 90002 A lot of factors come into play when considering whether or not a person is even capable of loving you — so many factors that, in the end, it all comes down to luck. 90003 90002 If he or she happens to be in the right place in life, in the right mindset, then he or she may fall for you. Such windows are small, however, and are missed more often than not. 90003 90020 3. Realizing that you’re capable of treating people horribly.90021 90002 Love brings out the best and worst in people. When things within our relationships are going the way we wish them to, we’re the nicest individuals in the world. 90003 90002 But because we put so much on the line, open ourselves up and put great trust in another individual, when we feel threatened, we lash out with horrendous fervor. 90003 90002 There is no better person than a person in love and no more horrible a person than a person feeling he or she may lose that love. You need to accept how horrible you can be in order to realize how much it takes to avoid being that person.90003 90020 4. Realizing that your emotions can play tricks on you. 90021 90002 What most people do not realize until it’s too late is that our emotions are not good indicators of reality. First, we have the reality that exists outside of us, that is not subjective, but entirely objective — a reality that exists only in the physical sense. 90003 90002 We then add a second layer to this reality by perceiving and interpreting what we perceive. Only then do we experience emotional responses — but not in response to reality itself, but in response to our interpretation of it.90003 90002 Feelings are the third, and furthest removed, layer that make up our personal reality. If we misperceive, misinterpret or misunderstand something then our emotions will reflect the errors we make, not what actually exists. 90003 90002 Most relationships fail because of just this — misinterpreting reality, drawing the wrong conclusions and then allowing our misleading emotions to get the better of us. 90003 90020 5. Realizing that although forever is scary, it can also be comforting.90021 90002 Fear of commitment is a real thing. Every time we commit, we are simultaneously rejecting all other possible alternatives; there are always opportunity costs associated whenever we make a decision. 90003 90002 Most decisions do not worry us too much as we feel that we can reverse them if necessary. When it comes to love, however, most of us believe that it is or, at the very least ought to be, forever. 90003 90002 Making a decision that you believe you need to stick to for the rest of your life is scary.What if you make the wrong decision? What if you’re going to miss out on something better? These will always be possibilities — you can not wrestle with them because these questions will never go away. 90003 90002 Instead, focus on all the positive things that having a special someone in your life allows for. The truth is that you are never stuck when it comes to relationships … unfortunately most people do not realize this until they let that special someone get away. 90003 90020 6. Realizing that missing someone can hurt indefinitely.90021 90002 Most physical pains are temporary. Emotional pains, on the other hand, have the ability to last for decades. They may not be constant, but they have the ability to resurface again and again for years to come. 90003 90002 All that’s necessary is for one experience, one thought, one memory to trigger another painful memory. Because we’re only human, we learn from experience. The only way to understand how much it’s possible to miss someone is to miss that someone that you now know you could spend your life with.90003 90002 You will never miss anyone the way you miss the one that got away. I can say this with certainty because if you do manage to find another special someone to spend your life with, you’ll sooner die than let him or her slip away. 90003 90002 For More Of His Thoughts And Ramblings, Follow Paul Hudson On Twitter And Facebook. 90003.90000 It’s never too late to find love: Alone for decades, Liz gave up on relationships — and convinced herself she preferred being single 90001 90002 I’m proof it’s never too late to find love: Alone for decades, Liz gave up on relationships — and convinced herself she preferred being single. Then something astonishing happened … 90003 90004 Liz Hoggard 90005 90006 90004 Published: 90008 00:18 BST, 9 July 2012 90009 | Updated: 90010 9:03 BST, 9 July 2012 90009 90006 90004 Even now, I find it hard to carry off.I keep trying to use the ‘boyfriend’ word — dropping it casually into conversation, just like everyone else. But I still feel like an impostor. 90006 90004 For 20 years, I’ve been the poster girl for single life, writing numerous newspaper articles about the topic. 90005 90006 90004 Looking back, it suited me that relationships never worked out. All those vulnerabilities about my body went unchallenged — no one saw me without make-up, or when I was sad or unwell. 90006 90020 90020 90004 Liz Hoggard proves you can fall in love at any age 90006 90004 So the fact that quite recently, in my late 40s, I have fallen deeply for someone has been quite a shock.After a painful break-up at 28, I spent most of my 30s single. In my 40s, I suddenly got a new lease of life. 90006 90004 I started going on dates. A strange time, perhaps, to regain a sense of optimism. Society is quick to tell us we need to settle fast — that younger women are the enemy. Which is frankly nonsense. 90005 90006 90004 In fact, I found the dating scene more generous in my 40s. People do not have the same agenda for the perfect face, the perfect figure. They want someone for fun and films and sex and travel.90005 90006 90004 Yes, I had a few dalliances that did not work out, but in hindsight I clearly was not the right woman for them. 90005 90006 90004 Honesty is always the best policy at this age. When I was younger, I did everything I could to avoid rejection. Now I think it’s quicker — and cleaner — to find out what’s really going on. 90005 90006 90004 Single life was never boring. I went internet dating, joined supper clubs, even got sent to Love School for a writing assignment. But nothing quite stuck.Occasionally, I felt a little sad that I was not a candidate for long-term intimacy. But no matter, I threw myself into meeting new people. 90005 90006 90004 ‘To Liz, The Empress of Friendship,’ my friend Marcus wrote on my 45th birthday card. Maybe romance just was not my forte. 90005 90006 90004 Single figures 90005 The number of single women has more than doubled in the past 30 years — 51 per cent of women under 50 have never married 90006 90004 But then, a year ago, I started corresponding with Chris, 51, a film and music writer, through an online dating website.It turned out we lived seven minutes apart by train, and have often been at the same film or play. 90005 90006 90004 But it’s taken us more than 20 years to meet properly. And, if I’m honest, I was not completely convinced at first. I’d grown so used to semi-detached relationships that it took a while to accept someone who is properly nice. 90005 90006 90004 Chris has been through a divorce, so he knows what enchants — and what gives pain. I was slightly appalled by such warmth. We had evenings where I sat so far back on my bar stool I nearly fell off.I talked airily about being long-term friends. 90005 90006 90004 He knows — shamefully — I asked him to my book launch only because I thought it would be good to have someone there who worked at the BBC. 90005 But that night something shifted. 90005 90006 90004 While I was trapped signing books, there was no shortage of other glamorous single women keen to meet him. Friends emailed the next day saying: ‘Who is that lovely man?’ 90006 90004 Better pay closer attention, I resolved. My friend Helen took charge.’Email him and say:’ So you know I mentioned a while back that you should go on dates with other women? Well, being one myself and running true to form, I have changed my mind and would prefer it if you did not. ‘90006 90004 I arranged a lunch. We talked for 12 hours solid. As I warmed up, he became more relaxed and teased me more. It felt very equal. 90005 90006 90004 So, why did it work out this time? Partly because I was not desperate. I had a very nice life, thank you. But I had also experienced loss.My father died last year and I think there is a life-force that propels you towards change. 90005 90006 90004 When I got the call from my sister telling me Dad had died, everything went into slow motion. I reached for my phone. And suddenly I realised there was no one I could call. 90005 90006 90004 I have lovely friends. Lots of them. But this was different. I needed someone who knew my family history; how it would be changed irrevocably. As I jumped into a taxi to go home to pack for the funeral, I felt slight despair.How had I got to this age without an intimate friend or lover in my life whom I could call anywhere, anytime? 90005 90006 90004 Later, through the haze of the funeral, I found myself wondering would I ever be released enough emotionally to have a grown-up relationship. 90006 90004 Clearly, losing the first man in your life is a major milestone. Born in the Thirties, my father lived through World War II, when there was little time for luxury or sentiment. 90005 90006 90004 In my teenage years we had arguments.He found me chaotic and impractical. My reaction was to look for men who judged me less strictly. But actually I kept dating men who were uncannily similar to my father. They kept me at arm’s length when I got upset or insecure. 90005 90006 90004 I found men liked me when I was aloof, the classic ice queen, but when I got warmer, something drove them away. Clearly, there was a needy quality that repelled them. 90006 90086 90086 90004 So happy: Liz and new boyfriend Chris 90006 90004 I learned to mask it.But that left me feeling inauthentic. And, typically, the truth has a habit of coming out when you drink too much. 90005 90006 90004 Fearing you may be unlovable can be a self-fulfilling prophecy. You’re looking for trouble even when a relationship is going well. I knew I needed to tackle head-on why the fear of rejection was almost more frightening than rejection itself. 90005 90006 90004 I did some therapy. It was painful, but incredibly helpful. Just articulating these feelings out loud to someone in a neutral space stops them being so frightening.90005 90006 90004 Gradually, I was changing; I was prepared to take more risks. But also I could finally confront my pattern of hooking up with emotionally unavailable men. 90005 90006 90004 ‘When you’re younger you do not even know it’s a pattern,’ says psychoanalyst and author Anouchka Grose. 90005 90006 90004 ‘You have not had a chance to run through it ten times and see what you repeat. And so, when you date again in your 40s, you can be much wiser to yourself, which is really helpful.’90005 90006 90004 When I met Chris, I knew I could not make any more embarrassing mistakes when it came to men. Gradually, I began to trust it might be OK if he saw me with all my raw, clumsy, messy secrets. But being in a relationship in your late 40s is another country to that of dating in your 20s or 30s. I’m not sure how often you’re ‘allowed’ to see each other without seeming to crowd the other party. 90006 90004 And having got so used to dates who do not want you to meet their friends, or who holiday solo, I’d learned to be independent.Even now I’m part of a pair, I sometimes catch myself pouring a cup of tea for one or putting out the light when Chris is still reading. 90006 90004 I keep policing myself to make sure I’m not being a boring, surrendered girlfriend, or neglecting true friends who have seen me through bumpy patches over the years. 90005 90006 90004 In our 40s, it’s easy to grow hard-wired to rejection and loss, but luckily there’s always something — or someone — about to come along and blow away our preconceptions 90005 90006 90004 Having been the single girl for ever, I know it can be painful when people suddenly disappear off the face of the earth after finding partners.We want our friends to be happy, but it is a delicate balance. 90005 90006 90004 Nice friends are thrilled, of course. Several singletons see it as sign that relationships can blossom later and that online dating is not just one long horror story. 90005 90006 90004 But I’ve been slightly hurt by a few reactions. One woman implied that simply because I have a partner, I’m not a feminist any more, adding that she never gets to see me on my own despite the fact I’ve been trying to arrange just that.90005 90006 90004 I’d be mortified if anything I did suggested I was not a feminist and I’d hate to imply it’s better to be in a couple. I still believe passionately that you can have a great life as a single woman. In many ways being in a relationship — with all the compromises — can be stressful, too. 90005 90006 90004 ‘I think couples like to have a single friend or two because they remind them of the freedoms they had when they were single,’ says Mark Vernon, author of The Meaning Of Friendship.90005 90006 90004 ‘They know they can access you on demand — single friends are always free for a night out. They love the part of themselves they see in you. 90005 90006 90004 ‘Another possibility is that now you are with someone, old friends in settled couples are secretly jealous. How dare you have a romance in your 40s! You had it all — the freedom in your 20s and 30s and now, damn you, you’ve got the intimacy, too. 90005 90006 90004 ‘It is as if you have had the perfect life combo, despite the agonies, while they got hitched early and so lost out on the travel, a flat of their own and so on.’90005 90006 90004 I have learned a lot. Dating is a numbers game: the more people you meet, the more likely you are to meet one that’s right. 90005 90006 90004 You are probably not the best judge of who is a good match for you — often your baggage gets in the way of seeing other people clearly. 90005 90006 90004 And it does get nicer as you get older (or at least over 45), partly because you’ve made many of your life choices so you know what you want. But also because you’re less defensive.90005 90006 90004 Of course, it can be bittersweet when you meet later. What-ifs hang in the air — the children you did not have, the houses you never bought. But on the positive side, I’d argue Chris has met a much nicer version of me than the one he’d have found ten years ago. 90005 90006 90004 He understands my baggage and slowly I’ve felt my self-esteem rising. In a society obsessed with youth, it makes me smile when he says: ‘Do not you love hanging out with people our own age?’ And now I know what it feels like when someone truly likes you, when they charge across town just to see you for ten minutes.90005 90006 90004 True, I still can not imagine living with anyone. I need my own space and so does Chris, though he has called my bluff by finding a flat to rent in the street next to my house in South London. Hopefully, we’ll manage to live side by side, like Simone de Beauvoir and Jean-Paul Sartre. 90005 90006 90004 In our 40s, it’s easy to grow hard-wired to rejection and loss, but luckily there’s always something — or someone — about to come along and blow away our preconceptions. 90005 90006 90004 I’m the last person to give expert advice, but maybe the trick is to stay open-minded and realistic.It’s never too late to enjoy emotional intimacy — and find love. 90006.90000 I rejected a girl and now I realized that I really love her … 90001 90002 Hi guys, about half a year ago, a girl confessed her feeling toward me and I rejected her, now I can not stop thinking about her and I start to realize that I really like her. It started four years ago when I met her for the first time in my first year of college. At first, I did not have any feeling at all toward her, however, after meeting her for several times, I started to like her. She took the same major as mine so we saw each other a lot.The reason why I like her is because she was the first girl in my life that ever cared much about me. She texted me everyday, asking about what I was doing, etc. However, since I was an awkward boy with social problems, I was not really sensitive about the fact that she was really into me. I had my suspicion about it but I always tried to deny the possibility since everytime I tried to talk to her about it, she always laughed and said no. Thus, I told myself that she was telling the truth even though her actions were very contradictious.This continued for around 3 years. But, one day, she texted me and she eventually expressed her true feeling toward me, and she also asked about my feeling toward her. I was really shocked and confused, I did not know what to do because I always rate myself as a hopeless and useless human being. I know it is wrong to think like that but I have been trapped with these negative thoughts in my head forever. I could not help but to think that I could never make her happy or she would hate me if she knows my true self, etc.That was the moment when I rejected her, saying that my feelings toward her was just temporary and that she should forget about me. She did ask me if there is a possibility that I still like her at that moment or if I still have a slight feeling toward her, but I said I did not. I lied to her … After that day, she started to keep her distance. Whenever we meet face to face, she always tries to avoid from interacting with me. She still texts me sometimes but lately she barely does that. One thing that worries me is the fact that she starts to drink and smoke a lot, and a part of me feels guilty for it.It’s like I am the one who makes her changes like that. I really want to tell her that I really like her but I just can not help myself with all of these negativity inside my head. A part of me wants her to move on but I can not lie to myself that another part of me is still hoping that she can be with me. Up until now, I know that she is still into me but I just do not know what to do. I do not know what’s the best for both of us. I do not want to hurt or confuse her more … 90003 90004 90005 This topic was modified 5 years, 9 months ago by Joe.90006 90007 .90000 Love Late by Lan Lin 90001 Translator and raw provider: dairytea 90002 3/21/14: synopsis proofread by Micky 90002 3/9/18: added some things here and there 90002 90005 90006 90007 90008 90009 90010 90007 90008 2007 cover 90009 90010 90015 90016 90017 90018 Title: 90019 90020 Love Late 90021 — 遲 愛 90022 90017 90018 Official English Title: 90019 90020 Late for Love 90021 90022 90017 90018 Author: 90019 Lan Lin — 藍 淋 90022 90017 90018 Total volumes: 90019 2 // republished as 1 volume with extras 90022 90018 Related novels: 90019 Uncontrolled // Not Found // Unspeakable Desire // Expected Degree // Leaving Against the Wind // Round Trip // Pandora’s Box 90002 90017 NSFW warning 90022 90018 90002 90019 90018 Translator’s comment: 90019 I listened to the audio first and could not help but fall head over heels for the strong Lee even with all his flaws.90018 Volume 1: 90019 90002 Lee Mo Yan, known as «Lee», an elite of the legal world who is approaching his forties, had worked hard to pave the way to get to where he was. However, all that he worked for vanished into thin air when a political scandal broke out involving a politician he backed and when his lover dumped him. Finding himself in a worrisome situation, Lee received an unexpected invitation from an upperclassman from his past. 90017 Upon returning to T City to become an office worker after living in Los Angeles, he encountered Ke Luo, the boy who had left him without saying goodbye.Pretending it was nothing, he continued to live frivolously. That is, until he fell apart after realizing that he was a substitute for someone else … 90022 90017 Could this sadness be love arriving a little too late? 90002 90022 90017 90018 Novel Translation links: 90019 90022 Volume 1 — Prologue // ch2 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11 90002 Volume 2 — 12 // 13a // 13b // 14 // 15a // 15b // 16a // 16b // 17 // 18 … 90002 2016 edition — … 19 // 20a // 20b // 20c // epilogue // Xie Yan’s Diary // extra 1 (translating) // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // extra’s extra // Lin Jing’s Interview // postscript 90017 Pdf files: (Chapters will be compiled into pdf files.) 90022 90017 90018 Extras: 90019 90002 Fan-made trailer 90002 Fanart 1 // 90022 90017 90018 Re-translated by other groups: 90019 90002 Spanish translation 1 // 2 // 3 90002 Italian translation 1 // 2 // 90002 Korean translation 1 // 2 90002 Russian translation 90002 90022 90005 90006 90007 90008 90009 90010 90007 90008 2016 Traditional Chinese cover 90009 90008 90002 90009 90008 90002 90009 90008 90002 90009 90008 90002 90009 90010 90015 90016 90005 90006 90007 90008 90009 90010 90007 90008 2016 Simplified Chinese cover 90002 2018 Thai cover: click here 90009 90010 90015 90016 .